Today I feel Apprehension (dark green).
I decided to sit down and write today. There are two books I’ve done a lot of leg work for, character design, story plots, and so much more. One of the books I have a lot more of the plot and characters worked out… so I started to write it. The first part made it to 2,432 words. I have been debating all day if I was going to start publishing it on Wattpad or wait until I have a better start on it.
I am nervous that if I start to publish it, that I won’t be able to finish it. I hate reading unfinished works, it’s a terrible thing as a reader. I also worry that my story won’t be good enough, that people won’t like it. I’ve got so many “reasons” for not publishing. But the more stories I read on Wattpad, the more I want to get my work out there. I just started this blog, I’m scared that I am overloading my plate and that both will fail.
For as long as I can remember I have been writing stories, or at least starting to write them. When I was very young it was about robots in space, it changed into mystery novels after that, and now fantasy. Even when I was younger I could do the research and planning. I just never finish the writing.
This is not a New Year’s resolution. It just randomly happens to be New Years day that I started this endeavor. To give myself that last push, I finally decided to publish the first part and get the ball rolling.