Today I feel Excited (yellow).
I know excited doesn’t appear on the emotion chart found on my about page, however it is found on another charge under the joy category as a mix of joy and daring.
As soon as I finish writing this post, I will go out for some 牛肉麵 (beef noodles) down the street. After a dinner that won’t create any dishes for me to clean, I will be back in my cozy cave with a bottle of wine. Let the video game party into the New Year begin!
Today I feel Acceptance (light green).
I stayed at the office late today after I punched out to keep the Chinese teachers company while they finished with some cleaning and paperwork stuff. We were chatting, so I hung out for a while.
Normally when the topic of relationships comes up, I am spectacular at speaking in passive sentences or using non gender specific pronouns and titles. Things like “my date” instead of “he”, or “It’s nice to be taken to a nice dinner.” I’m not going to outright lie, but I will let people imagine whatever they want.
Today for the first time, I let a pronoun slip. “Did you just say ‘him’?” Luckily neither of them care, and the conversation was more about how proud she was that she caught the small English detail in the middle of a discussion.
Today I feel Serenity (yellow).
There have been a lot of things in my life recently that were rather chaotic. The two biggest things being my job stability existing in a state of great question and the ambiguity of my relationship status.
While those two are not completely off my plate, and there are certainly smaller fish to fry as well, my life finds itself in a moment where everything seems to be in a calm period. Things aren’t perfect yet, but they are not overwhelming. Most of my Fear (dark green) has faded, and I am looking into a new year.
I got the idea to start this on the New Year, but decided there is no time like the present.